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MUCK – Fight or Rest

08 Jul

Sometimes I just don’t feel good about life and or my self and during those times I find that I’m also not a very good husband, father, grandfather or friend. I find myself sinking in the mire of MUCK and the longer I sit in it the harder it is to get out of it. Some may call it self pity or having a bad day. During these times I have a hard time seeing good in anything in me or around me.

Usually I am up beat about my life and try to encourage others and help them also feel better about things in their life too. But today I’m not upbeat nor do I feel happy at this moment. Just like being in quick sand, not that I’ve been in that before but from what I know of it when you panic and fight to get out you go deeper and sink faster.

I attended church today and the praise and worship was awesome and we had a missionary from San Salvador sing and speak but something inside me was fighting for my attention and it wasn’t the Holy Spirit it was my flesh fighting to gain control. All the things that happened this past week, things that I worry about, the finances and what might happen tomorrow if, oh no the dreaded “IF” word. Those two letters I and F when placed together form a word that can send terror into the heart of even the strongest Christian and immobilize them into jellyfish not the warrior that we are in Him.

Another two letter word that the flesh uses to distract me from true joy is the M and E, “ME” when I get so focused on myself and how I feel I forget that a true servant focuses on others and their needs.

There are spiritual battles going on unseen to our human eyes and as we seek to draw closer to God and to do His will we often find our self questioning if what we believe and are trying to seek is real or not and worth it. So much of the world around us believes in the things that they can touch and see but for the Christian it goes beyond the five senses of sight, touch, seeing, hearing and smell. The word FAITH means believing in something not seen or without proof. Those unseen things are hard for us to trust and that is why as we Grow in Christ we must learn to rest in HIM during the times that we feel like the world around us is beginning to smother us and we are sinking in the MUCK of the world.

Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
These are the words of Jesus, He said “I” will not the world, not you, not your spouse or family HE will provide for me rest when and IF I take the first step to him.

Just as Jesus had to surrender his will to the Father we too have to become servants not seekers of our own selfish desires if we are too find true peace and Joy for our life.

Matthew 26:42 He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”

It has been many months since I have posted anything to my site. During this time I have felt that God was placing a desire in my heart to write a book to share many of my life experiences and how He has helped me make it through many things that if it had not been for Him I know I could not have gotten through them. I am praying that what I will write will be Him and not me as I share what I call G.C.P.P. and acronym for Gods Calling, Purpose and Plan.

As I continue to pray and seek God in this endeavor I ask that you remember me in your prayers too that any and everything that I may write or say would give the Father God all glory.

 

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